Movements In Pain

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when I ain’t being aware
of a painful arising within
all my movements thereafter
no matter what
— appealing or non-appealing —
will be inevitably aimed at
blocking the awareness of it
i.e, those movements are habitual
— habitual unconscious
that means I do not have to be there
not be present
to fill in the time thereafter
sleepwalking fills it
the non-movement that I am searching for
with regards to pain or any trigger
is “seeing” the automatic movements within
those auto reactions to triggers and pain
if I don’t see they consume me. Period.