Pain: The Pattern Breaker

No pain no growth no change

Pretheesh Presannan
2 min readDec 18, 2021
Photo by saeed karimi on Unsplash

there was no question of next
they just flow into the next
without even knowing or caring
but as soon as pain or discomfort arose
they were suddenly so concerned:

how to fill time,
how would the next happen,
time would never get filled,
oh my routines,
oh what about my
self-image maintenance program,
wtf without hope of remaining the same
I am just going to panic
or go back to the “less-humbled” version of me
as I was all “humbled” myself with improvement gimmicks
— whatever that stupid cliche word “humbled” even mean
how arrogant one must be to say “I humbled on purpose” —
of course, since my improvement hope is threatened
now I should just fkn panic, right?
or responsibly find the right
colored pills, right?
Oh my sleep is disturbed,
maybe I will violently sit with pain
release that piece of shit
after all, it’s a stupid thing
that must be taken out of me, right?
it doesn’t belong to the great me
I am the righteous doer, after all,
or will bully a therapist to suck it out
and go back to the comfort zone
after all, it's my responsibility
to safeguard my comfort zone
unlike other losers, right?

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Pretheesh Presannan

Panic Attack Survivor. Just writing. Plays cricket. Design&Develop. You can find short stories, poems, etc, here. For any work mail to : pretheeshgp@gmail.com