Persisting In Blindness

take a difficulty
a suffering, at this moment,
now what is required
for it, this very suffering,
to persist
what is making it persist?
can the suffering in the now
persist without seeking the next?
what if you forget to persist?
can it still persist
like the rain outside
(which is clearly not my creation)
so am I unknowingly following a pattern
going with the flow passively?
can one persist in being afraid
if one forgets to be afraid
despite the feelings and whatever?
am I waiting or wishing
for someone else’s experience?
well, I just got mine to work with.